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[原创]灯下漫笔(杂文)

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发表于 2007-1-31 03:20:00 | 显示全部楼层 |阅读模式
本帖最后由 雨荷风 于 2015-10-8 04:48 编辑

<p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><b><span style="FONT-SIZE: 18pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">灯下漫笔(杂文)</span></b><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">湖北省十堰东风教育集团铁路学校</span><span lang="EN-US" style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">&nbsp;</span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">郭仁发</span><span lang="EN-US" style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">&nbsp;1<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">当今的中国社会真是太复杂了,比历史上任何时期都要复杂千万倍,因此,我不但呼唤鲁迅的出现,而且,还敢斗胆自称是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">中国当代的鲁迅</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">”</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">!令人遗憾的是,有的人并不理解我,竟然用世界上最刻薄的语言对我进行冷嘲热讽,用世界上最恶毒最肮脏的语言对我进行辱骂和人身攻击</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">2<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">现在,我的处境真是糟糕透了!不说别的,就说我的工资之低就令人不可思议!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我先后毕业于湖北省郧阳师范专科学校和华中师范大学,参加教育工作已有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">26</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">年,现在是中学一级教师、北京师范大学《中国基础教育》特约编辑和中国散文学会会员,然而,我每月的工资却只有几百元!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">这真是荒唐得不能再荒唐了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我想:如果教育界的这一丑闻传到国外,一定会让外国人笑掉大牙</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我感到气愤的是;面对我的这一处境,我的同事们竟然装聋作哑甚至装疯卖傻!他们都是知识分子,竟然会麻木不仁到如此严重的地步!他们的良知、正义感和社会责任感都跑到哪儿去了?!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">唉,这是一个怎样的世界呢?!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">3</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">在当今的中国社会,如果有曹立秋、周梅春、余启蒙这样的革命青年,社会丑恶现象就一定会减少很多</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">虽然我现在已经不是一个青年了,但是,我却常常会热血沸腾,犹如战争年代和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">文化大革命</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">”</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">时期的革命青年,例如:在看电视连续剧《星火》时,在创作长篇小说《在茶场的日子里》时就这样</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">虽然“文化大革命”时期是极左思潮泛滥的年代,但是,也是革命热情高涨的年代!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我之所以要怀念那个年代,是由于那个年代几乎每个人(尤其是青年)都有革命激情</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<br/><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">电视连续剧《星火》中的那个余启蒙,虽然是资本家的女儿,但是,她渴望投身于时代的大风暴!对此,我非常能理解</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">4<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我厌恶平庸琐碎的生活,因为这样的生活毫无意义,毫无价值!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我为什么要创作长篇小说《在茶场的日子里》,聪明的读者一定不用我说就会明白</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我记得鲁迅生前曾经说过:人生在世,得一知己足矣!我的知己在哪里呢?!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我还厌恶没有爱情基础的婚姻和家庭生活,因为处于这样的婚姻和家庭生活中无异于慢性自杀</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">!<p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我需要的是“爱人”,而不是“妻子”!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我需要“红颜知己”,不需要“花瓶”和“绣花枕头”!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 18pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">我喜欢“才貌双全”的女孩,讨厌“卖弄风情的风流娘儿们”!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 337.5pt; mso-pagination: widow-orphan; mso-char-indent-count: 37.5;"><chsdate wst="on" isrocdate="False" islunardate="False" day="30" month="1" year="2007"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">2007</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">年</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">1</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">月</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;">30</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">日</span></chsdate><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><p></p></span></p>

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发表于 2007-1-31 09:13:00 | 显示全部楼层
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<p>郭先生,你虽然对我的有些看法极力反对,但我在看了你的这些感慨之后也顾不了你的抨击,还是说说愚翁的一点看法吧。你说时代需要鲁迅式的作家,这是对的,但鲁迅的出现是当时时代造就的,如果放在现在鲁迅也出现不了,也许根本不会出现。你已经明白了你是马克思主义的作家,你还要当鲁迅式的作家,你想你的处境能好么?鲁迅的一生是战斗的一生,但他更是极为艰苦的一生、担惊受怕的一生,时时刻刻都有被暗杀的危险。你既然自称为当代的鲁迅,那你就应该早做好一切思想准备,更不应该计较你周围的人如何看待你、怎样蔑视你,你要将一切置之度外,这才是至高无上的、超脱的。反过来说,你如果是一个中立的作家,以作品讽刺、挖苦、揭露你周围甚至整个社会的不良现象或者黑暗面,不要具体到能对号入座的某一个人,我想你周围的同事包括你们的领导会对你尊重有加了,也不会受到歧视了,更不会视为异类。愚翁认为作家不外乎分为三类:红色作家、中立作家、反对作家。前者是紧跟政治形势走的,一切作品为政治服务,如高尔基等;中立作家往往是以事实隐含自己的观点,不直接表明自己的态度如吴承恩等,这类作家居多;后者很明显表明自己的态度,如鲁迅等,这种作家很难生存。在下这种看法也许你不赞成,但愚翁以为至少能帮助你分析你的处境及其你现在境况的原因所在。好了,我上班了,谬误,请批评。&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; 愚翁&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; 2007.01.31</p>

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楼主的心中有深深的愤慨,更有切切的期待,需要的是自我调节,和身边人的理解跟支持。

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