[原创]我是谁？：读马拉美《镜子》

林海

<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 黑体;">[]<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 黑体;">我是谁？：读马拉美《镜子》<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font face="Times New Roman">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">啊，镜子<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">那寒彻的水<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">竟可恶地将你冻伤的面庞蒙掩。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">多少时辰多少回<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">梦境被搅碎。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">追寻我的记忆，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">它们像片片纸页<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">坠入你面颊后的深穴。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">你显出我的身影<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">犹如徘徊在远处的幽灵。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">嗬，可怕啊！多少个夜晚，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">在你无情的镜面上<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">我看清了纷乱梦幻的赤条条的本相！<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 90pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 7.5;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;">——马拉美《镜子》<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="COLOR: black; mso-bidi-font-size: 10.5pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font face="Times New Roman">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">马拉美，法国象征主义的主要诗人之一，现代主义诗学的重要理论家，常被称为“象征主义之象征”。他的诗篇，如同他的思想一样深刻而精微。他拼命直视真我的精神世界，“他纯洁的光辉派定在这个地点</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font face="Times New Roman">/</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">如幽灵，在轻蔑的寒梦中不复动弹：</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font face="Times New Roman">/</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">天鹅在无益的谪居中应有的意念。”（马拉美《天鹅》）他得不到他“一心向往的归宿”，他于是转向了“镜子”，在以“镜子”为核心的整体象征中，自由平缓而又带几许急促地逼问难堪的此在。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">“镜子”具有显像的功能，在这里，它是显现“我”的承担者，镜中的我，是我吗？而那“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">寒彻的水</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">”可怕、可恶地一次次将“我”</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"> 搅碎。这乃暗示我们，生命的“真相<span lang="EN-US">/</span>假相”，生命的复杂性在这里凸显，这是生命瞬间的体验。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">惟有生命，显现于镜前，骤然而至的颤动、惊讶、惊诧，没有丝毫造作，直到“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">我看清了纷乱梦幻的赤条条的本相！</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">”象征主义诗人总是将整个大自然看作是富有象征意义的森林，外界事物与人的内心世界能够发生深刻的感应，在万物“契合”中索解生命。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">这首诗就是一座象征的“森林”，诗人的情感侵入在那片密林之中，意蕴深藏。“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">啊，镜子<span lang="EN-US">/</span>那寒彻的水<span lang="EN-US">/</span>竟可恶地将你冻伤的面庞蒙掩。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">”如果说，人的存在是时间性问题，那么，这种于时间内的向前探问，就企图唤醒或撕烂自我，接近存在。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">“镜子”、“寒彻的水”、“冻伤的面庞”，还有镜中的我。在这一群密集得彼此相连又彼此相异的意象群中，诗人奇妙的视角与心灵对撞，刹那间的惊诧，雷鸣般地破碎在“寒彻”里。想像的无理而妙，生命的感受、思考、激奋、闪耀，在镜前、镜中翻转心脏，急跳……急促……不可言喻的砰然领会，也许更精确地说是逼问，活生生的我是谁？我的“本来面目”是镜中自然彰显的那个吗？在这同一的时间里，仿佛“寒彻的水”“蒙掩”了我。“寒彻的水”一种自发显现的意象，一种直底生命老巢的逼问，它暗喻人生的悲哀、疼痛、焦虑和挣扎，我被遮蔽了，我的生命一次次被这可恶的东西搅碎。悲凉的心境，有一种可能，一种深度，还有一种启示。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">我是谁？真我在那里？“追寻我的记忆，<span lang="EN-US">/</span>它们像片片纸页<span lang="EN-US">/</span>坠入你面颊后的深穴。”往事的记忆深埋在面颊的皱纹里，像“划出一道冰冷的犁沟”（</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font face="Times New Roman">
                        </font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">马拉美</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">《叹》）镜子啊！在这里也许暗示往事，你显现了我，但那真我总是像幽灵一样徘徊在远方。诗人在这里凸显了生存的困惑和人性的矛盾与冲突，这种困惑与矛盾、冲突将诗人推向了一种不可捉摸、但又空幻灵动、有厚重的方向感的心灵体验。从根本上说，诗歌是生命的泉源。从这里我们可以隐约领会到诗人灵魂深处复杂而刹那的泉源。“嗬，可怕啊！多少个夜晚，<span lang="EN-US">/</span>在你无情的镜面上<span lang="EN-US">/</span>我看清了纷乱梦幻的赤条条的本相！”人的存在是由个体性、变化、时间、空间以及死亡所规定的。生命的大化流行，无物常在。镜面上与“寒彻的水”凝为一体的是“无情”的时间，此时，有两种声音在这里混响、摩擦、互否、冲突，并扭结在一起，一种是现在的我的声音，一种是真我的声音，无法分解，纠缠不清，最终逼着“看清了纷乱梦幻的赤条条的本相”，真我与假我在这里浑然一体，既恐怖又崇高，这就是诗人对人性的深刻认识。生命在此得到逼问，得到觉醒。我是谁？在这里得到深刻而灵动的反思！<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">2007</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">年<span lang="EN-US">3</span>月<span lang="EN-US">18 </span>日<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 24pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p>&nbsp;</p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font face="Times New Roman">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 22pt; mso-line-height-rule: exactly;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font face="Times New Roman">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p>

赵福治

<font face="仿宋_GB2312">真我与假我在这里浑然一体，既恐怖又崇高，这就是诗人对人性的深刻认识。.....欢迎多来交流.</font>

白开水

问好，多交流！

弦意

借文了解了马拉美，问好！